Archive for July, 2006

The Computation

Thursday, July 27th, 2006

Mr H, a friend of my wife and a lovely man — sadly we haven’t seen much of him in recent years — has just lost his beloved wife to cancer. Death is so cruel.

Here is how John Donne described the pain of losing his own dear wife.

The Computation. by John Donne

FOR my first twenty years, since yesterday,
    I scarce believed thou couldst be gone away;
For forty more I fed on favours past,
    And forty on hopes that thou wouldst they might last ;
Tears drown’d one hundred, and sighs blew out two;
    A thousand, I did neither think nor do,
Or not divide, all being one thought of you;
    Or in a thousand more, forgot that too.
Yet call not this long life; but think that I
Am, by being dead, immortal; can ghosts die ?

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What a painful and beautiful poem.

“For my first twenty years, since yesterday”

You poor man, twenty years after your wife’s death, the pain is still fresh.

“For forty more I fed on favours past, And forty more on hopes that thou wouldst they might last”

‘Would’ in Elizabethan English means something like ‘would wish’ or ‘would hope’. Forty years of living in the happy memories, then another forty in the hope that he had made her happy while she lived. How kind he must have been.

“…Or not divide, all being one thought of you; Or in a thosand more, forgot that too”

Poor man, so depressed, lost in his grief. His ony thoughts are of his wife. Or finally just completely desolate, barely thinking at all, as really depressed people are. (this is so authentic, clearly an honest first hand account of what we in our clinical modern way would call deep depression)

“Yet call this not long life; but think that I Am, by being dead, immortal; can ghosts die?”

A sweetly sad ending. He can’t bear to tell us of his grief, so he makes a wry joke of it — not even that funny, how could it be? Of course he hasn’t lived 2000 years, his sadness has just felt that long. But what a sad punch line to the joke — he hasn’t lived 2000 years, he has been dead 2000 years, with his beloved gone joy is gone, life is like death, dead inside, dead to the world.

And yet, in that last couplet, a tiny suggestion of hope, delicately emphasised by the slight touch of humour. The words ‘immortality’ and ‘ghost’, both with a Christian meaning — ghost (as in ‘Holy Ghost’) in Elizabethan English also having the meaning of spirit. So there is just the faintest allusion (within the context of his other poems) of his faith in eternal life and reunion with his beloved.

The music of the words is delightful. Delicate like a little painted miniature. Simple and almost childlike, with few words of more than two syllables: ‘yesterday’, then ‘immortal’, that one jumps out at you, subtly emphasising again the Christian hope (his audience would have been attuned to these references, so they only needed to be very subtle).

Childlike also with it’s little counting game. This has a touch of the ’sing song’ about it, and reminds me a little of Ophelia’s mad scene in Hamlet. Grief drives people mad, because madness is a refuge when reality is more than you can bear. But the counting game is then brushed aside in the last couplet, which contains that little joke, but also the poems most serious thoughts, delivered rapier swift.

Imagine this poem read to an audience, and this change in tone would become much more distinct. The last couplet fades, and it takes many seconds for its inner depths to sink in, even for Donne’s sophisticated audience. There is a hush, one of the ladies dabs away a tear.

A beautiful and heartfelt poem. So simple. So honest, authentic and sincere. So very very sad. And yet not self pitying, but thoughtful, with a slight touch of humour, even a little philosophical, and with an expression of hope for others who might be grieving.

Good old John Donne, you really are one of the greatest poets of all.

Daddy and friends

Wednesday, July 26th, 2006

If you’ve read any of the gibberish I write on this Blog, you may have wondered what I look like (or at least you may have wanted a description to pass on to the men from the funny farm).

Well here I am, as rendered by my daughter, who turned three a few weeks ago. It’s actually quite a good likeness!

dada

And while on the subject, have a look at this. These are some of her ‘omochi friends’ (that’s a song on one of her CDs). Pretty cool drawing for a three-year-old, isn’t it?

cartoon friends

The Morning Star

Tuesday, July 25th, 2006

To complement my earlier link to ‘The Way of the Fathers’, here’s a link to a very good short article on a man who deserves to be ranked alongside the early church fathers. Not a father of the church, but certainly a father of the reformed church.

The Morning Star, John Wycliffe.

“I indeed clove to none closer than to him, the wisest and most blessed of all men whom I have ever found. From him one could learn in truth what the Church of Christ is and how it should be ruled and led.”

Two new tracks

Sunday, July 23rd, 2006

I have two new tracks up at MP3.com.au:

Space Sonata

Embryonic Living Soul

NB: This second one has some very deep bass that is not properly compressed and EQed, so it’s only suitable for quietly. Played loud the bass will be too much for most speakers.

My music is peculiar — it’s ‘ambient’ with a lot of improvisation. It’s not unpleasant, but most people don’t like it. I’m OK with that

Is IVF the new Eugenics?

Saturday, July 22nd, 2006

The ability now exists in a small way, and will probably increase significantly over time, for IVF doctors to select embryos based on the presence or absence of certain genes — ie. to select for genetic criteria. This is being compared by some to the ‘eugenics’ movement of the early 20th Century.

Based on the crude philosophies of Darwinism (not to be confused with Darwin’s scientific theories which are a different thing altogether), this profoundly misguided medical movement proposed that it was Man’s right role to weed out the genetically unfit. In the West, and the USA in particular, forced sterilisations were performed on women who were considered genetically unworthy — usually because they were poor, of low intelligence, or had been sentenced to prison — a horrible crime perpetrated against these women, and a dark chapter in medical science.

Subsequently, Eugenics was enthusiastically adopted by the Nazis who went one step further and began murdering the sick, the retarded, those with Down Syndrome, the mentally ill, as well some homosexuals (homosexuality was considered a mental illness in those days). As with all evil, having once embraced it, it was a short logical step for the cultured people of Germany to become the perpetrators of the most monstrous crime in all history, the attempted extermination of the entire Jewish race.

The history of the Eugenics movement thus raises a huge range of questions, and casts a dark shadow not just on Darwinism but upon all of Secular Rationalism. It also serves as a warning against giving too much power to welfare bureaucrats, as these were the people behind the selection of women to be sterilised.

And it quite rightly means that whenever anyone suggests undertaking genetic selection in any medical or social context, sensible people become concerned. This was the case when insurance companies suggested requiring their customers to pass genetic tests, and it is the case now that IVF doctors propose testing embryos for genetic conditions before implanting them.

I am troubled by selection of embryos for specific genetic characteristics, although I don’t reject the idea outright. It depends on the severity of the condition. Doctors have already begun selecting embryos of women who have difficulty carrying a pregancy to term due to miscarriage, with much success. This seems an ethically acceptable decision to me, as that human life would die anyway (the principle of triage).

Much more troubling is the selective abortion of certain unborn babies, for example if they have Down Syndrome. In my opinion this is wrong in almost all cases. Although, like many things that are wrong, it may be impossible to legislate against it.

And if genetic selection of IVF embryos were to become based on more trivial genetic factors (for example intelligence or eye colour), I think most people would be appalled. At its best this would mean treating humans like livestock, and at its worst, to be seeking ‘God-like powers’ to control human evolution.

There are other aspects of IVF that some lead some Christians to regard the whole field as morally wrong. The most usual objection is that destruction of human life — particularly innocent life — is wrong in all cases. In other words, it is wrong during abortion and so it must be wrong during IVF. This is a reasonable objection, but I don’t believe on closer examination it is justified.

Yes, most embryos will fail to implant and will die, as do many or most naturally conceived embryos, some others will be frozen, and if not used will eventually cease to be viable, at which point they are thawed, and die. Is this murder, or is it like switching off life support for a patient who will never recover, or neither, or both? People of Faith and good faith can ponder this question.

However, the idea that vast numbers of unused embryos need to be wantonly destroyed during IVF is not true. Almost all those that die, will do so in the process of trying to give them a life. Once pregnancy is acheived, not every couple will even have left over embryos, and for those who eventually do, usually by this time many more than this viable embryos have been implanted. The number unused will typically be quite small. In our own case, four ova were harvested, two of these successfully developed into embryos, both were implanted, and we were blessed with non-identical twins. What could be more life-affirming?

Furthermore, there have been moves recently (for example by President Bush) to promote the adoption of unused embryos, which is a good response to a valid ethical quandry, as well as an act of great kindness for infertile men and women who cannot produce embryos at all.

Note, too, the broader ethical questions that arise once a medical treatment becomes available. Deliberately withholding medical care from someone, who subsequently dies when they would have been expected to live had they been treated, is considered homocide. Could it not be argued that withholding fertility treatment from someone, who remain childless when they could reasonably have been expected to have children with treatment, is equivalent to sterilisation?

Getting back to the Eugenics movements, are there not similarities between condemning women to sterility who could readily be treated by modern medicine — for philosophical reasons — and the sterilisation of ‘undesirable’ women by the 20th Century Eugenicists — also for philosophical reasons.

In fact, I find blanket opposition to IVF to be a very strange sort of way to sanctify life — since it denies it.

Finally, there is an argument often used against IVF — particularly when it was a very new treatment, but which I believe is still the official position of the Catholic Church — that it is wrong simply because it is unnatural. It’s wonderful to sanctify natural human reproduction and relationships — the proper name for marriage is ‘Holy Matrimony’, after all — and I fully support the principle that children belong in families of a mother and father who share physical, emotional and spiritual bonds, and who have demonstrated their commitment to each other by making a binding contract of legal, spiritual and physical union, but to extend this principle so far that it results in the enforced barrenness of a proportion of these married couples is wrong.

It is applying the principle in a manner which could not be foreseen when the principle was laid down. It is adhering to the letter of the law but ignoring its spirit. In fact it reminds me strongly of the objections of the Pharisees when Christ healed on the Sabbath. Religious rules are a fine thing, but Jesus teaches us that sometimes we must follow a higher law. Just as Christ taught that healing ruined bodies superceded religious rules designed to protect the sanctity of the Sabbath, likewise healing couples so they can bring new life into the world — and life is the greatest thing any of us can give the world — must surely supercede religious rules put in place to protect the sanctity of the sexual act.

Furthermore, to some degree it can be seen as a variation on the argument that because things are a particular way, therefore it must be God’s will they should remain thus. I totally reject this simplistic point of view. In fact I find it not at all Christian, more fitting in fact to a fatalistic heathen religion. As Christians, don’t we accept that Satan has marred the world, and we are under instruction to ’subdue’ it — to use our abilities to do God’s work on earth? Where would we be otherwise?

On balance, there are some grave ethical questions are raised by infertility treatment — as indeed they are by very many areas of medicine and technology — but like most of the ills of modern life they are not central to the process. They can be ameliorated without robbing good women of the opportunity to be good mothers.

The Dalai Lama is a better Christian than me

Friday, July 21st, 2006

(Once again I’m recycling comments I made on another person’s Blog - this time in response to very good post at The Paragraph Farmer, arrived at via Julie at Happy Catholic on the similarities between Buddhism and Christianity, with reference to the to the Book ‘Living Buddha, Living Christ’.)

When scientists talk about wave-particles and warps in space-time and such. I understand what the words mean, I can understand and follow the concepts and I accept that as far as we can tell it’s ‘true’, but it’s all completely abstract, it has no grounding in anything I can truly comprehend from experience.

When people start talking about Buddhism — and my wife is a Buddhist — try as I might I get the same feeling. I understand the concepts philosophically, but — with a few exceptions — they don’t connect with me deep inside.

However, to be fair, when Christian theologians start philosophising about the nature of God, justification by Faith, the ransom and original sin and all that stuff, blow me down if I don’t get the same reaction. It’s a nice intellectual exercise, and I accept that it’s true and I should live my life accordingly, but in all honesty it doesn’t have meaning to me, at least not the sort of meaning I feel in my soul.

Yet when Christ says ‘Cast your burdens on me’, ‘Come to me all you who are heavy laden’, ‘I know my sheep and my sheep know me’ and all the many wonderful things he says in the Bible, my eyes well up and I understand. It means something, it’s real and true to me in the deepest sense.

I really feel like God is speaking right to us when I read the words of Christ. ‘My sheep know my voice’, to me holds more truth than a thousand tomes of theology.

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Yet again, I look at the Dalai Lama, and the forgiveness and forbearance he shows, and I feel like, whatever he stands for in the abstract, in the here and now of this world he’s a true follower of Christ. Then I look over there, and I see the enemy — there’s no mistaking them. Perhaps we’re meant to leave perfect understanding to the next world. Maybe in the here and now it’s enough for us to stand shoulder to shoulder against the evil in the world and to let God do the rest.

What did the disciples actually say to each other that day?

Thursday, July 20th, 2006

And he came to Capernaum: and being in the house he asked them, What was it that ye disputed among yourselves by the way?

But they held their peace: for by the way they had disputed among themselves, who should be the greatest.

And he sat down, and called the twelve, and saith unto them, If any man desire to be first, the same shall be last of all, and servant of all.

–The Gospel of St Mark, 9:33-35

Have you ever wondered exactly what the disciples said to each other during that argument? Well, wonder no more, I can tell you!

One disciple said, “I and those like me will be first in the Kingdom, because Protestants are heretics, who are damned because they do not receive the sacraments.”

Another said, “I and those like me will be first in the Kingdom, because Catholics are damned because they do not understand Paul’s letter to the Galatians and the doctrine of justification by faith alone.”

Thus saith the LORD, After this manner will I mar the pride of Judah, and the great pride of Jerusalem. This evil people, which refuse to hear my words, which walk in the imagination of their heart… Hear ye, and give ear; be not proud: for the LORD hath spoken. … But if ye will not hear it, my soul shall weep in secret places for your pride; and mine eye shall weep sore, and run down with tears, because the LORD’S flock is carried away captive.

Jeremiah 13: 9,10,15,17

And by chance there came down a certain priest that way: and when he saw him, he passed by on the other side. And likewise a Levite, when he was at the place, came and looked on him, and passed by on the other side.

The Gospel of St Luke 10: 31-32

Woe unto you, lawyers! for ye have taken away the key of knowledge: ye entered not in yourselves, and them that were entering in ye hindered.

The Gospel of St Luke 11: 52

And that servant, which knew his lord’s will, and prepared not himself, neither did according to his will, shall be beaten with many stripes.

But he that knew not, and did commit things worthy of stripes, shall be beaten with few stripes. For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required: and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more.

The Gospel of St Luke 12: 47-48

[T]he sheep follow him: for they know his voice. And a stranger will they not follow, but will flee from him: for they know not the voice of strangers.

The Gospel of St John 10: 4-5

The worst heresy

Why do we live in a world of sin that has fallen away from God? Because the churches are full of pride and iniquity.

Knowledge — including doctrinal knowledge — is like money. It’s not a bad thing in itself, used wisely it can do a lot of good. But you only need a mite of doctrine, and to know the Shepherd’s voice and follow Him, to be worthy in the Kingdom. And you could be as wise in doctrine as Caiaphas the high priest, but if you have a proud and cruel heart it will avail you nothing.

The Gnostics of the late Roman Empire (of ‘Judas Gospel’ infamy) were the true heretics in Christian history. Not because they followed a butchered form of Christianity — although they did — but because they believed in salvation by knowledge, that a soul was saved by a mind knowing the right magical secrets. This is an evil thing to teach and a destructive thing to believe.

It separates us from God, and imprisons us within our own minds.

How many Christians make the same mistake? They trust in the products of human thought — doctrine and philosophy — instead of the power of the Holy Spirit.

A good tree doesn’t produce evil fruit.

We hacked each other with halberds, and perced each other with pikes. Catholic monarchs conducted a 30 year massacre across what is now Germany that killed as many in that region as the Black Death. Protestants committed acts of similar wickedness in Ireland.

And as a consequence this, the people of the West turned away from God. We Christians drove the flock into the arms of the devourer. In the aftermath of this long period shameful behaviour, atheistic philosophies flourished.

Rationalism, Madame Guillotine, Slavery, Marxism, Communism, The Final Solution.

All these things follow from Christian wickedness — our wickedness.

God have mercy on us.

Another site I love, The way of the fathers

Thursday, July 20th, 2006

Another site I love:

The way of the fathers

A beaustiful site, with lots of short posts by and about early Christian father. Here’s just one example:

An intelligent, discreet, and pious young woman is worth more than all the money in the world. Tell her that you love her more than your own life, because this present life is nothing, and that your only hope is that the two of you pass through this life in such a way that, in the world to come, you will be united in perfect love.

–St. John Chrysostom

Isn’t that beautiful? It makes me think of my own wife, which in turn reminds me how deeply God has blessed me. If you’re a husband I hope it does the same for you.

Some excellent things at Dr. Mark D Robert’s site

Thursday, July 20th, 2006

Some excellent things at Dr. Mark D Robert’s site:

Dr Mark is struggling with denominations at present. He’s a minister in the Presbytarian Church USA, so you can probably guess why. My belief is that Satan is trying to destroy mainstream protestantism by infiltrating the agents of his religion* into the administration.

(*Satan’s religion is legion and goes by many names — in the denominations Marxism and Feminism are probably the most common)

Dr Mark has also added some more articles in a long, informative and erudite series on the Gospels. Dr Mark is a sincere Christian, but has also studied deeply the history of the Roman world at the time of the Christian fathers. These essays (including his earlier ones on the ‘Jesus Seminar’ and the ‘Da Vinci Code’) are well worth reading.

IVF - more free advice

Thursday, July 13th, 2006

A footnote to my last post - more free advice for those Christians opposed to IVF (cheap at twice the price).

This battle is Gallipoli for the pro-life movement

The reason, because:

1) it’s a sideshow in the war to save the unborn,

2) it can’t be won,

3) even if it could be won, it would not win the war,

If you are pro-life, consider this; the war for the unborn will be won or lost in the main theatre of action — abortion.




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